by Anthony Forwood I look at a picture of Adam Lanza - the most recent in a growing line of young mass murderers - and see something that others seem to be overlooking. The more obvious awkwardness of his frail, nerdy physique and the smileless face bespeak a lifelong inner frustration of not being able to fit in. But looking deeper, I can almost hear his thoughts... And there, but for the grace of God, go I - and all of you. Where does a young man expect to go in life with no hope of making real friends, incapable of relating to others, never knowing what it's like to have a girlfriend, his family split up and only his mother there to give him any attention - and probably not the sort of attention he really needs? Never mind the stories that the media is spreading, leading us all to see him as a mentally disturbed loser who played violent computer games to fill his lonely hours. Never mind the stories that his mother was some sort of gun collecting survivalist waiting for Armageddon to erupt in the near future. That's all just cheap print material to fill editorial pages when nothing more can be found to say. These little tidbits are merely used to suggest that the blame lies in lax gun laws, violent video games, broken families, ineffective pharmaceutical 'band-aid' remedies, etc. Always, the blame is put elsewhere than on those who created the real root of the problem - almost always, the blame is focused on the last link in a series of effects that stem from that one root cause. Adam Lanza was the latest personification of our deeply troubled society. We should ask: Why do we even want or need guns in our society? Why do we want or need pharmaceuticals to 'fix' our mental defects? Why are there so many broken families these days? Why do we expect an Armageddon? Maybe we really do need that last one. Maybe, like me, Adam saw this as the only inevitable solution to the sickness of society that he was certainly aware of, and deeply affected by. Maybe he decided to create his own little Armageddon, knowing that a larger one could only erupt through many similar acts to his own final one. I just can't bring myself to hate or even be angry at this young man. I can only feel a deep sadness for him, and so many others like him who are being ignored and their lives wasted - a familiarity, even. I can understand what he must have felt like growing up in a cold world where even getting bullied once in a while would have been better than being totally unrecognized, and incapable - due to severe feelings of insecurity that handicapped him - of making the effort to fit in with others who were so unlike himself. Adam Lanza was certainly very different than most people. Some who knew him say he was a genius, but he also had unusual medical problems that held him back and shouldn't ever be held against him because they weren't his fault - or his parents, either. On the one hand, he had so much to offer, and he was probably not at all unaware of that fact. On the other hand, he had no outlet to properly express his good qualities and do something with them to change his situation. He was very unusual, and for that, society offered no place for him. Whether or not he was mentally ill is totally beside the point. Society itself is mentally ill. If we take this back to the real root of the problem, like with virtually every other problem we might ever have to deal with, whether personally or as a society, it comes down to the media's conditioning effect on us. After all, it's the media that promotes guns, violence, fads, trends, habits of thought and action, preferred lifestyles, new types of mental disorders and their pharmaceutical fixes, etc. It's the media that promotes everything that we've come to think and believe and expect and desire. You can't get away from it anymore. It's everywhere and constant. And the story of Adam Lanza has become just another episode in a never-ending program of social conditioning - a self-fulfilling story that uses real lives to fill the roles of its characters to act out the parts that lead the audience to emotionally respond as they're expected to do in their hypnotically fixated trance. No, I can't hate or even be angry at Adam Lanza. I can only hate the media and the money-hungry corporate profiteers who own and operate it. They don't present these things to us without thought. They don't present them because we the public ask for it. There is a very purposeful design to their unrelenting presentations if these things. They're designed to break us down and make us conform, and this goes against the very nature of our being, and they know it. Like every one of us, Adam Lanza was a target of the diseased thinking that expects every problem we might have to be solved with a quick fix or through conformity to the ways of government and big business - who pretend to have all the answers but are incapable of accepting responsibility for their part in these results. The story of Adam Lanza and the rampage that resulted in the deaths of twenty innocent young children and six adults - plus Lanza himself - is just another lure to draw us into paying still more attention to what the media presents. Now that the basic crime story has been presented, all the media attention goes to exaggerate the purported goodness of those who are left to deal with the aftermath. The victims and their family and friends get our sorrow. Police and paramedics on the scene get pats on the back and honored for their 'brave' actions cleaning up the mess. Politicians get extra air time to remind the public that they are acting in our favor, but only when it's too late... These people don't deserve so much attention, as good as it might make everyone feel. It is corrupting the real truth and distracting us from it. The media isn't willing to give nearly so much attention to the many, many dead children in Iraq and elsewhere that government and big business have been complicit in murdering for their own selfish ends for years on end - and which the media tries at all costs never to mention. Without media to present their stories to us in a very selective and one-sided manner, what goes on in the rest of the world would have little to no effect on us. That would be more natural and proper. That would allow us to live somewhat more comfortably and without such insecurities that lead us to buying into their message. We are all being affected by the Controlled Media Syndrome. This is a disease of thought that is as bad as any mental illness that leads a person to lash out in a murderous rampage. It is instilled by government and big business to lead us into hypnotic conformity. Many are being affected by this to the point that they feel that what Adam Lanza and so many others before him have done is the only way to get the message out that our society is very sick. But the very message they attempt to send out is always usurped by the very media that creates the problem, and turns it on its face. Certain things are being purposely ignored or omitted from their presentations while certain other things are being given too much attention. Adam Lanza stayed away from the internet. He had no facebook account, and people are actually finding that to be strange and even suspicious. Really? Personally, I think he may have been aware of the fact that the internet is just another controlled media outlet, and if he had used it to try to speak out about what was bothering him, his voice would have been quickly drowned out anyway. Or it would have been twisted in the aftermath of his violent act to conform to what we are supposed to believe about him. There is no escape from the machinations of those who control the media, except to avoid it altogether. I stopped watching and reading the news shortly after the 9/11 tragedy, and I've felt so much better since I did. It gave me time to explore more important issues that are going on in the world but never being reported in the mainstream. I started to get a real education, while others were busy being conditioned to respond to lesser issues in the manner that the media dictates they should. As I pointed out earlier, we need to ask ourselves: Why do we even want or need guns in our society? Why do we want or need pharmaceuticals to 'fix' our mental defects? Why are there so many broken families these days? Why do we expect an Armageddon? The media will NEVER look into these questions. But they need to be looked into. Doing so will lead directly to the root cause of our growing social disease. Until we do, we are ALL as sick as Adam Lanza was, and any one of us might soon act out in a similar way. It's planned to happen. It's EXPECTED to happen. It WILL happen, if we don't shut out the media in all its forms. Wake up people1 Don't wait until it's YOU who can't take it any more and you find yourself the next tragic case of Controlled Media Syndrome! The media thrives on these tragedies, while disowning responsibility for them. But they ARE responsible. Adam Lanza surely knew that he would become the next big story, but without the media being as it is, he never could have been, and he may never have done what he did. Think about that.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Members of the TI community are at different levels of understanding about their situations and are prone to read or hear about things that are not true, or at least very questionable and unverified, so it’s very important to remember a few things when investigating the subjects of gang-stalking, electronic harassment, or mind control.
1) Much information that’s put out on these subjects has a lot of emotional or alarmist content and this is not really helpful, and can even be dangerous. It appeals to the baser human instincts and avoids logical consideration of what is being said. I know that every TI out there wants people to hear and understand their situation and get some sort of help, and this leads many to write posts, blogs, or documents that highlight their emotional anxieties, fears, and imaginings. If you come across anything that has a lot of emotional content and little information that can be checked out and properly verified, be VERY careful of the writer’s affect on your understanding of things. I actually suggest completely avoiding such material, at least early on, because it has the least amount of value. You might gain some insight into the subject and find some comparisons to your own experiences, but you also risk learning false information that will throw you off. This leads to…
2) Unbeknownst to newly aware TIs, there is a purposeful program that has been going on for decades to create false beliefs regarding these subjects. These are very carefully crafted disinformation campaigns that involve many people, some knowingly involved, but many that are unwittingly being used to mislead people by having them promote false information. I can’t possibly list all the people I’ve personally come across who I suspect of being involved in spreading disinformation, and these people come and go over time, which is one of the ways that the mechanics of these disinformation programs work. I’m at the point in my research where I feel I understand the mechanics and purpose of these programs quite well, but to explain it all here would take too long since its fairly complicated and would require using specific examples that would require you to study them at length. What I must say here, however, is that most organized attempts to fight against gang-stalking and mind-control and bring awareness to these issues are quickly snubbed in the bud through various means, in order to derail real efforts. The most common method is through perp infiltration of such organized groups, so be VERY CAREFUL about connecting up with ANY organization or ‘official’ support group. These groups and organizations are watched very closely by the people who are orchestrating gang-stalking, electronic harassment, and mind control, so they are DANGEROUS to get involved with. Some are even using well-established cult methods to control members and effectively indoctrinate them into the perp mindset.
3) Apart from these organized groups, there are MANY perps posing as targets, and their job is to spread fear and confusion, usually by making claims that exaggerate the reality of the situation. I believe that most facebook groups and all other popular forums for TIs are heavily populated by perps posing as TIs. This doesn’t mean that there are far fewer TIs than you would otherwise think, since many TIs stay away from these places or just don’t post, and there are many perps who are essentially TIs as well. But again, when you see someone posting messages in these places that are laden with emotional content, or making claims that sound at all alarmist, do not accept what they say blindly. Even if the person isn’t a perp that’s purposely lying, many real TIs are VERY poorly informed, and have bought into a lot of the false information that’s circulating. Remember, we’re all at different stages of understanding, including these people, and so you have to be very careful of what to believe when you first start investigating these subjects. It’s always better to be reserved in what you accept than to believe something blindly.
4) How do you validate the worthiness of what someone claims? Well, the best way is to politely confront them and ask them for some background information that led them to their beliefs. If they come up with any sort of excuse to not be able to, such as that they fear reprisals from their perps, or that they ‘just know’ but can’t or won’t explain how they know, then disregard what they say and move on. Don’t waste your time with anyone who can’t show that they’ve used logic and reason in deducing the facts about their situation, or who are not willing to consider other possibilities. If, however, they can provide documentation for what they claim, don’t stop there, but look at the documentation, and look at it VERY CLOSELY. But again, BE CAREFUL. Much of the documentation that I’ve been referred to in this fashion has turned out to be short on verifying as much as is claimed by the person who referred me to it, or by the person who wrote it. A lot of material out there is speculation presented as fact.
5) Google is very useful for acquiring information, but it also has its pitfalls. The most popular links come up first, but they’re not necessarily the best to use for information sources. Google is rigged so that new information is actually harder to find, since it must become popular before it will make the top listings. With subjects like gang-stalking, electronic harassment, and mind control, there are a million or more listings that will come up, and many of them are repetitive. Also, those who are orchestrating these activities know how to keep their favored links coming up first, based on the intricacies of how google works. That’s a topic I don’t have time to study. I suggest learning to refine your searches for more specific information, rather than to just search for ‘gang-stalking’, ‘mind control’, or whatever, and don’t read just one article on a particular subject, but instead, read as many as you can to see what others might say as well. Then make your judgment.
6) I feel that I should give some pointers for newly aware TIs to get started, and although offhand I can’t list too many specific sources that might be useful, I can offer a few general areas to research. On the subject of gang-stalking, I suggest you read up on ‘occupational health and safety laws’ or ‘community health and safety laws’. This will provide a good understanding of how these activities got started and how they became so well organized and widespread. On the subjects of electronic harassment and mind control, it is very important to be careful what you read, and I suggest sticking to only the most professionally written and scientifically researched information. There are several sources that I will say you should avoid, only because these are ones that I’ve personally researched and can say without any doubt whatsoever that they are disinformation sources. These are: anything referring to the John St Clair Akwei case, anything written by Robert Duncan, anything that refers to the Robert G. Malech patent and satellite-based (laser) mind-control technologies, and anything to do with the person who goes by the name ‘Mell Mellhedek’ (if he’s still operating). I also suggest avoiding anyone at all who is getting heavy promotion online as an activist or TI advocate (particularly if they are affiliated with an organization or support group, such as FFCHS), since they are VERY LIKELY to be disinformation agents, whether knowingly or not.
7) I’ve been researching all manner of subjects directly or indirectly related to those discussed here day in and day out for many years, and I feel I have a very broad range of knowledge regarding most aspects of these subjects, compared to most people. I’ve been writing my own articles and documents related to gang-stalking and mind-control for the past few years as I continue to research them, and although I don’t claim to have all the answers or to always be entirely accurate in everything I might write (although I try), I think that my own work is well worth looking at. I attempt to avoid writing anything but useful and informative information, or uplifting pieces for those TIs who are losing heart, and I don’t engage in using emotional content (except perhaps for the uplifting pieces) – just straight information and personal insights, and usually of a unique nature. Although some of my work is speculative (based solely on the fact that certain information is impossible to verify), I always try to make it clear to the reader when it is, and to provide the most well thought out articles and documents that I can. I don’t do this for money or recognition, but only to record my insights and what I learn, and there’s no reason not to share these with others, so I do whenever I feel it’s worthy enough to publish. Although much of the information I write is not beginner level material for newly aware TIs (I don’t rehash what has already been published elsewhere for newly aware TIs), it will still be of interest to all TIs nonetheless. You can find my documents at www.scribd.com/aforwood, and other articles on my blog at www.exposinginfragard.blogspot.com. I suggest that newly aware TIs who are interested in understanding how gang-stalking groups can organize and operate so secretively start with my articles, ‘Social Self-Destruction: A Secret War of Controlled Chaos’, and ‘The Network’. I always have several new documents or articles in the works at any given time, so there’s always something new being posted at those sites every month or so. If you ever have any questions or thoughts about anything related to these subjects or my articles, feel free to contact me on facebook (friend requests welcomed) or email me at email@example.com.
Stay strong and be well informed!
Monday, November 5, 2012
These can very easily contain:
1) Embedded audio or visual subliminals
2) Audio or visual preprogrammed triggers
3) Neuro-Linguistic Programming effects
When you are focused on watching TV or a video, your brain goes into a receptive state. You’re brain goes from a beta state to an alpha state, where your brainwave frequency lowers to below about 11 Hz, and the left-brained functions that relate to thinking and logic are suspended. This makes you far more suggestible to what is being input, and you can notice this after you’ve been watching something that grabs your attention so intensely that you seem to be living the activity almost as though you were taking part in it rather than just being a spectator. Of course, as soon as you notice this, you activate your left-brain functions and your thinking about it immediately raises your brainwaves and you’re back up in a beta state again. But as soon as you focus your attention back on what you were watching, and become absorbed once more, you sink back into an alpha state of higher suggestibility.
Our brains switch innumerable times from alpha to beta throughout the day, so it isn’t uncommon at all. It’s a natural part of brain activity. But the important thing to understand is that when you’re in an alpha state, you’re very receptive to outside suggestions, and as long as that alpha state can be maintained, you will absorb information, suggestions, and ideas without giving them any thought. It is absorbed as true or as real as anything else, without being given the critical analysis that thinking normally provides.
This knowledge about the brain and its various states and the heightened suggestibility that can be induced is often put to use by unscrupulous people who seek to influence others. In the case of TIs who are looking for answers or information about their targeting, it’s known by the mind-controllers who target them that TIs frequently use the Internet as their primary information source, and many of these TIs tend to resort to watching Youtube videos or listening to podcasts that have become so frequently produced by supposed experts on various subjects that relate to their targeting.
The mind-controllers do not want TIs to figure out how their targeting is being accomplished, since this would allow them to take steps to protect themselves from it, so the mind-controllers produce and present many different videos and podcasts featuring targeting concepts that attract the curiosity of TIs. It may be on the subject of electronic implants, electronic weapons, nanotechnology, chemtrails, alien abduction, psychic attacks, etc. Whatever will support the suspicions or beliefs of a TI seeking to understand their own particular circumstances.
The mind-controllers are also smart enough to employ people who act as proponents for TIs and their cause, and these people spend a long time cultivating the acceptance and trust of TIs, and those who are successful at this and begin to develop a following are used for the purpose of both disseminating false or misleading information, but also for the application of mind-control techniques through videos and podcasts. The same methods that are used can’t be so easily applied to written material, because reading written material allows a person to stop at any time and think about what was just read, which upsets the brainwave induction that’s needed to put the person in the necessary suggestive alpha state before inserting the desired suggestive material. It can still be done with written material using certain writing techniques, but it is far less successful and very limited in its application.
In videos and podcasts, the mind-controllers are careful about the timing and presentation of scripted spoken material and the presentation of ideas. They know exactly how to present information so as to manipulate the audience’s mental state into alpha, at which point they can slip in a subtle suggestion that will usually go unnoticed because the overall dialogue keeps the audience in a receptive alpha state long enough afterwards that the suggestion enters the subconscious without being allowed to be analyzed by thinking about it.
However, rather than the speaker verbally stating the suggestion within their dialogue, the mind-controllers are much more likely to insert it subliminally by overlaying it on the soundtrack or embedding it in the screen images. This is far safer from detection, and nobody will ever be able to go back and spot the suggestion.
What sort of suggestions might be given in this way? Well, it’s not very likely that a person will become mind-controlled very strongly or for very long by this method alone (over a short duration), but for those TIs who are already being mind-controlled by other means, this method is very useful for maintaining and strengthening certain aspects of the mind-control. For instance, it is important that the mind-controllers keep their targets from ever believing that they are under mind-control, so they are routinely given suggestions to deny the possibility that they are. On top of this, the mind-controllers can use suggestions to direct a target to believe the wrong things so that they don’t begin to believe the right things. Also, the mind-controllers can direct the target to take an interest in such videos and podcasts, so as to continue the effect over the long term, which will serve to strengthen the suggestions being given.
The mechanics of mind-control is often quite complex, and understanding how it is applied in all its various ways requires is not easy to grasp. Some people might think that mind-control requires undergoing intensive programming in a laboratory, or the insertion of implants, or the creation of alter personalities, or the use of advanced secret technologies like satellite-based lasers, etc., before it can work. This may be the case in some situations, but these are not necessary, as long as the suggestibility of the target can be affected. All that is really required is the ability to hold the attention of the target and the trust of the target in the person giving them information in order to open them up to their suggestions. When you add subliminals and hypnotic techniques that can be applied through electronic means, videos and podcasts can become just another weapon in the arsenal of the mind-controllers.
Given the fact that they have been developing and refining their methods for over sixty years, and will make use of any and every platform for applying their techniques, online videos and podcasts meant for TIs is a very high candidate for such abuse.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Your waking world is a fantasy, and your dreams are your reality.
We don’t often remember our dreams, and this is a purposeful manipulation. Our dreams are where we are closer to our true essence, but we’ve been fooled into thinking that they are insignificant occurrences, and that our waking moments are what count. We are trapped in an illusion, tied down in a physical drama that is only a stage game. The real and significant events are those that go on when we are slumbering in the forgotten depths of sleep.
There are a few people who recall wisps of dreams of being in situations that do not reflect anything about their waking life, but which continue over time in a sort of second reality. These dreams reflect a whole other world that they can only ever retain the faintest memories of, images and sounds, places and people that usually fade too quickly upon waking to be able to remember what was experienced – where we were, who we were with, or what we were doing. Occasionally something is retained, but rarely ever enough to understand what was taking place.
“I was in Okinawa, a place I had never visited before. I was on a military mission of some sort, although I’ve never been involved in anything military. I was stationed in someone’s home in a suburban neighborhood that I didn’t recognize, getting ready to follow through with orders I got from I know not whom. There were no other people that I saw. I suddenly realized that I had forgotten to bring something with me to this place that was half a world away from home, and I had to go back for it. Suddenly I was back on home turf, out at the outskirts of town, standing by the road with the vacant farm fields on either side of it. I look up at the western sky and see a bright light swoop across from the south and swing down in a curve towards me. I was happy to see it. Suddenly it is landed behind me in the field on the other side of the road. It has turned invisible, but I know where it sits. I pull out a pistol and fire a shot at it. I don’t know why. Next thing I know, I’m back in Okinawa, prepared to continue with my mission. I gather my equipment in a pack and slip it on my back before heading out into the residential streets.”
The above is a dream scenario that I remember very distinctly, a rare glimpse of my nighttime experiences that I’ve burned into my memory as I’ve pondered it’s true significance. It stands out, not just because of its complete lack of relevance to my waking life, but more so because it’s so similar to certain reports I’ve heard from a number of other people over the years. Dreams of military operations and UFOs. The stark similarities are too real to be coincidence.
I did a search through my collection of downloaded documents for the keyword ‘dream’, and the very first file contains the following (from Gang Stalking World blog, November, 2010):
“With new technology they will be able to try to manipulate the dreams of people. There is technology now, that could potentially implant characters, events into dreams. I am not sure how advanced this is yet, but in future you might dream of complete strangers that you don't know, only to have real life versions of those people manipulatively cross your path.”
I had dreams long ago of people who were completely unknown to me in waking life, but who would continually arise in my dreams. Recently I’ve been realizing that they may have been the people who are around me now – my neighbors and certain other acquaintances – people who I’ve come to feel an aversion to, just as I had felt towards them in my dreams. These people are not right. There are things about them that make me not want to associate with them. They are immoral. There is a sense of sub-humanness about them, just as in my dreams.
I also found this in the same file:
“I believe that most of these so called alien encounters have been government kidnappings period. Either real physical kidnappings or done remotely at an astral level.”
“In the dream when I reflected I got a sense that the room had been used to experiment on people, to fool them that they were being experimented on by other worldly beings. It was a strong impression that I got when I reflected on the dream later. The strong impression was that instead of the one object that I did see in the dream, that normally the room would have had a table, and it was used for experimenting and that the people were fooled. The faces they see are images implanted, to hide real life creeps who do sick experiments.”
In my own dreams, more often than not, people are never anyone I know in real life and faces are never seen, or not remembered.
The following is quoted in the file, from http://gangstalkingworld.com/john-st-clair-akwei-vs-nasa/:
“Visual memory can also be seen. RNM can send images direct to the visual cortex, bypassing the eyes and optic nerves. NSA operatives can use this to surreptitiously put images in a surveillance subject’s brain while they are in R.E.M. sleep for brain-programming purposes.”
The document then continues:
“The images are being implanted to mask experiments that are being done at either an astral level, meaning you never leave the room with your physical body, but your astral body is experimented on. The dreams and the flashbacks would be very real, some people I suspect would have a hard time distinguishing the two if they were not aware of astral projection or astral dreaming. You can have a dream in astral and have flashback days, weeks, months later or never at all, and the flash backs would seem like a real world flashback if you did not know better.”
This relates directly to a dream I had as a small child, of a small humanoid creature standing beside my crib looking at me. The memory came to me as a flashback years later, and for no apparent reason, just as described above. This sort of dream memory flashback has never occurred for me before or since.
Another document I have (‘Dream Manipulation and Mind Control Technology’, by Jaye Beldo) discusses secret government technology that can access a person’s dreams, and the author states:
“The authority figures are barely human looking, i.e. they try to assume a human appearance but not too convincingly. Their faces are undefined, out of focus and usually darkened. The dreams take place in ‘foreign’ countries unknown to me-they never replicate actual places I have been or know about in real life.”
My own dreams, particularly the one I related early on above, often occur in places that are unknown to me, or where I have never been or know about in real life (Okinawa is in a foreign country to me and I’ve never traveled there).
The author goes on to say:
“The dreams nearly always take place in the 3:30 to 6:00 AM time slot. Rarely before or after this time period.”
In reflecting on my own dreams, they also seem to take place at a similar time of day, or at least when there are no other people about (in the dream), and with a sort of predawn or twilight atmosphere. I rarely ever see other people in my dreams, although there is often the presence of someone else with me, usually an adversary, captor, or someone similar, and always faceless and unidentifiable.
Another document I have (‘Agent Buried Alive’) relates the story of James Michael Casbolt, who claims he was an experimentee in Project Mannequin, which is a secret government mind-control and genetic enhancement program run by the NSA. The project was started in 1972. This project seeks out and uses people with rare genetic attributes, particularly those with good psychic potential. People from certain bloodlines are sought out, mainly those with Celtic/blueblood genetics (especially those with Rh-negative blood). Many of the experimentees are used against their will, and their involvement often starts when they are very young children. The purpose, according to Casbolt (and others), is to create programmed “sleeper” agents (espionage agents and assassins) using sophisticated electronic hardware-based hypnosis. Advanced memory-erasure techniques are also used, as is advanced remote viewing (clairvoyance) techniques. Some of these sleeper agents have been programmed to ‘awaken’ when certain major events happen, and this may culminate in an orchestrated ‘End Times’ scenario, to officially usher in a New World Order. This project has a ‘life plan’ for individuals, which will be used to advance its agenda. If one person in a family is being used in this program, then the rest of the family will also be used to some extent as well, as a security measure.
Whatever is going on, whatever the dream world might actually represent, there is a depth to reality that most people have barely paid any attention to, and it may be that others are already aware of this deeper reality and are taking advantage of our ignorance of it for their own benefit.
Kay Wilson claims to be an alien abductee, and has written a number of online books about this phenomenon and her experiences with it (The Alien Jigsaw, Project Open Mind, I Forgot What I Wasn’t Supposed to Remember). Kay Wilson is certain in her mind that these experiences are actual encounters with aliens, and that she is an emissary for benevolent beings.
In I Forgot What I Wasn’t Supposed to Remember, Wilson describes how she first learned of her experiences after having filled out and mailed in a questionnaire in OMNI magazine that asked about typical abduction symptoms such as missing periods of time, etc. She received a response and was soon meeting with Budd Hopkins, a very well-known figure in ufology and an expert on alien abductions. Hopkins put her in touch with various other people, and Wilson was soon fully believing that she was an alien abductee, and doing the lecture circuit at various UFO conferences, talking about her purported experiences.i
It should be noted that Kay Wilson, believing so strongly in her alien abduction experiences, would be an asset to any mind-controllers who wanted to promote the alien abduction paradigm to throw people off about what might really be going on.
Budd Hopkins is very well connected with the CIA, and is in a very good position to manage any of their MKULTRA mind-control victims who begin to notice any telltale symptoms, such as memory leaks. It was Budd Hopkins who coined the term ‘screen memory’ to describe the false memories that are used to cover up real memories of abduction experiences by earthly entities.
The OMNI questionnaire could have been directed by the CIA to lure in MKULTRA victims whose screen memories were starting to break through and needed reinforcement before the real memories they covered up started to break through as well. Through Hopkins, Wilson says she was put in touch with a psychologist who performed a number of tests on her and diagnosed her as having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), which is a symptom of having undergone trauma-based mind-control. Although she claims that hypnosis was never used on her at any time in order to retrieve her memories of her experiences, either this psychologist or Budd Hopkins could have hypnotized her at some point when they were with her, and without her ever knowing it.
Wilson says that she was married to a USMC pilot before she became aware of her experiences, and this is suggestive of how she might have become involved in mind-control as a victim. After her separation from this man, she describes having an ‘inexplicable’ desire to join the CIA or FBI.
In her book, Wilson urges anyone who believes that they have PTSD to contact one of several UFO groups, but these groups are generally known to be infiltrated by CIA agents who are there to manage and contain such mind-control victims who are sent their way by people like Budd Hopkins.
Wilson also urges people who believe they are experiencing alien abductions to keep a journal. Although this might be good for therapeutic reasons, it provides the handlers of mind-control victims a means to keep tabs on what these victims are doing and thinking, and would reflect any possible breakdowns in the mind-control programming.ii
In reading her book, it appears that Wilson offers more of her own interpretations about her experiences with these aliens than she offers any specific information coming from them. This is odd, considering that she believes she is some sort of emissary. If she was, she should have some good reason for thinking so that goes beyond just a feeling, and if she had been told she was, she would have tried to explore that with the aliens she says she interacted with. But she seems to have failed to. It’s more likely that she was made to think this in order to gain her cooperation by making her feel important to them, and nothing more. One of the few pieces of information that she claims to have received from the aliens, as reported in her book, was this: “Foster the alien children for they shall be revealed. More lights will be visible through Earth’s spectrum of particles.” Her interpretation of this was that ‘they’ are coming back and will reveal themselves to us, and we will start seeing lights that will be their craft. This is nothing that hasn’t already been claimed, believed, or suspected by all sorts of people, and has been said at least since Andrija Puharich began dabbling with psychic mediums in the late 1940s, and continued to do so as a participant in MKULTRA projects for several decades after. This certainly isn’t any sort of new revelation, but certainly acts to attract and hold the attention of the abductee, and any other true believers of alien intervention. Near the end of her book, Wilson starts describing scenes she was apparently shown of war, destruction, and death, stating that she felt these were visions being shown to her of the future, but she is never explicitly told that this is what the visions mean. She was left to draw that conclusion on her own. These visions are nothing new, either, and people have been claiming such visions for decades, even centuries, but as is always the case, premonitions of the future of the world are either very obvious outcomes, or they’re completely wrong. Further on, she states: “It is possible that we join forces with the Greys, Blondes and Hybrids and fight another more aggressive species of alien Beings. This opposing group might turn out to be a segment of humanity who will vehemently deny and then attack what they will witness first-hand an extraterrestrial presence on Earth.” If she is really under some form of mind-control, as I strongly suspect, it is more likely that this will be a staged deception that will be created by the mind-controllers, or is at least meant to confuse and misdirect people’s expectations or perceptions during some future event.
Wilson spends some time in her book promoting other high-profile authors and investigators of the abduction experience, all of who tend to be in a position to control the dissemination of information on this subject.
Regarding some of her experiences, Wilson asks: “Why would they go to these lengths to deceive me into believing that I, and some other people, exist in more than one dimension or that we can move through time, if this is not true?” Further on, while questioning the occurrences of MILAB (military abduction) experiences during abductions (including her own), she unintentionally suggests an answer to her own question: “Whether we are dealing with extraterrestrials or a nefarious group of powerful human beings, there appears to be a disinformation campaign underway. This has been orchestrated to mislead abductees – and therefore the research community and the public – as to what the truth is. In order to take the focus away from the true agenda, the aliens may want us to remember seeing “humans”, and the humans may want us seeing “aliens”.” However, Wilson states that she is totally against the possibility that MILAB experiences could be a sign that all alien abductions are staged military events, but without ever providing any sort of objective evidence to base that notion on. It’s very suspicious that she is so fixed on this as being the only possibility, considering that the numerous MILAB experiences she describes having are far more detailed than any of the experiences she had with aliens, the latter of which are only ever given as vague references.
In keeping our feet grounded in the most plausible of possibilities, it is more likely that alien abductions are nothing more than humans trained in hypnosis and other mind-control techniques who choose people who are more easily convinced by orchestrated scenarios involving humans that are perceived to be aliens.
But Kay Wilson is determined that these experiences are alien in origin. Further in her book, in describing the public’s reaction to her research, she states: “…sometimes it seems more people are interested in the ‘MILAB phenomenon’ than in true abductions by, and interaction with, extraterrestrial Beings.” Could it be that the public is just being more reasoned and logical-minded, and are not emotionally attached to any particular beliefs or experiences surrounding this phenomenon?
It’s strange that Wilson would describe situations that sound remarkably similar to mind-control symptoms or scenarios, including uncontrollable desires to go to isolated locations, memory flashes of events that she can’t place in her normal life, a sense of another entity or personality within her, experiences that seem to take place outside of space and time (creations of the imagination), inexplicably losing consciousness in the presence of strangers who come to visit, waking up feeling drugged, strange clicking noises on the telephone, finding military personnel at the side of her bed with electronic gadgets that they even claim are for mind-control, etc.
Something else that’s interesting about Wilson is that she explains that her first strange experience was a UFO sighting she had when she was sixteen years old. She also points out that from the time she was twelve years old until she graduated high school, a neighbor of hers who lived two houses down the street was a career officer in the CIA. She states that her sister babysat for them regularly, and she had a few times as well. This puts her directly in the hands of the people who run the MKULTRA mind-control programs, and at the very time that her experiences first started.
After one experience that she describes, Wilson states that she had a buzzing in her left ear for the next two days. This is a common early symptom of electronically induced mind-control, such as with V2K (voice-to-skull) technology.
A very telling entry in her book reveals her quick acceptance of whatever she might be led to believe. This incident involved a man appearing at the side of her bed who was holding a small electronic device and claimed it allowed him to “get inside of the mind”. Wilson concluded that this apparition that she claims to have had a conversation with was a hologram. However, elsewhere in her book, wherever she claims to have seen aliens (very infrequently), she gives no thought to the possibility that they might also be holograms.
Wilson describes the love she felt for many of these aliens, particularly a certain alien she refers to as the ‘Diplomat’. This sort of love is similar to what mind-control victims consistently have towards their controllers.
Wilson also explains her surety that she was really dealing with aliens and it wasn’t an effect of drugs or interrogation in this way: “I guess I would have to say that it’s from seeing and interacting with many Greys throughout my lifetime that I believe he was really there. I felt his hand in my hand. I know what that feeling is like because I’ve experienced it when I did not feel as if I had been drugged.” However, this ignores the very real possibility that she was hypnotized to see a certain person or persons as aliens, starting very early on in her experiences. The fact that she totally overlooks this possibility suggests that she may have been programmed to avoid considering the idea. That Wilson so often mentions the feeling of being drugged during her experiences may actually be due to being in a deep hypnotic trance whenever she was interacting with her controllers. Further, she describes communicating with them through telepathy, but this again could be due to the fact that while under hypnosis the outer world and inner world often become indistinguishable, and the mere suggestion that telepathy is being used would result in it seeming to her that it was. At the very least, it doesn’t seem that Wilson has ever heard of V2K technology, which allows sounds and voices to be beamed into a person’s head through pulsed microwave signals, and has existed within the arsenal of the US military since at least the 1960s.
To understand this issue of possible hypnosis better, there is a point where Wilson describes a woman who she can’t remember the name of, and suggests that she was programmed to not be able to remember. However, she fails to explain how she might have been programmed. She states: “Even when I look at her, I am consciously aware that I have known her for a long time, but my mind will not allow me to even “think” about her name.” Could it have been hypnosis that was used, and could she have also been programmed to not think of hypnosis as the means used to program her? It makes far more sense than anything else. It certainly covers the tracks of her perpetrators, and hypnosis is as effective as anything else that might be suggested.
There is another example soon after this in her book, where after she describes a scene where she finds herself with Budd Hopkins, Whitley Strieber, her husband Erik, and an alien who they are considering taking a picture of. She later states: “I do not believe Budd, Whitley, and Erik were really with me. Their images were constructed by this Being’s powerful mind…” Again, she ignores the possibility that the entire scene could have been a creation of the mind, and instead clings to the idea that the aliens are real while other things that seem just as real are not. In fact, there is a strange entry in her book a few paragraphs further where she states: “Budd has worked for decades researching abductions and we know one another. If he told me to take a picture of an alien, I would feel rather compelled to accommodate him.” Why would she feel so compelled to do whatever he said, unless Hopkins had a hypnotic hold on her mind?
Something that needs to be said about apparent telepathic communication with aliens… Traditional forms of mind control involve creating alter personalities (MPD), and these personalities can be programmed to have certain characteristics and to perform specific tasks when necessary, including monitoring or controlling other personalities, whether it’s the original one or other alters. These different personalities can also be co-conscious and aware of each other to different degrees, or totally unaware of each other, or only aware under certain specific situations, and can seem to be either inside the person or somewhere else. This opens up the possibility that Wilson has multiple personalities, and that one or more of her alters may even be experienced by her as alien entities, and that one or more of them might communicate to her in what would seem like telepathy, for lack of any better explanation for hearing them inside her head. The point is that there are a number of possibilities, given the known facts about mind-control techniques that are or can be used.
There are several indications in Wilson’s book that she had exposed herself to a lot of material on alien abductions and related subjects throughout her experiences that could very easily have influenced the content of her thoughts and experiences. For instance, she talks about Whitley Strieber’s book Communion, and praises it as her favorite book. She also mentions having read long ago about tetrahedral geometry and the possibility of inter-dimensional beings living on Saturn. It is easy to see in reading her book that she draws a great deal of speculative ideas about her experiences from this material. This only exacerbates the problem of determining what is fact and what is fantasy, both for herself as well as for her readers. It would be interesting to know how much she has researched (or avoided) the subject of mind-control.
One more thing that needs to be pointed out. Wilson claims that some of the aliens she had experiences with were benevolent beings. However, several times she stated that these particular beings were responsible for manipulating events in her life in order to achieve the outcome they desired (such as separating her from her first husband). In my opinion, no truly benevolent being would ever manipulate or force a person into a particular situation without their prior conscious consent. That is just not the way that benevolence is acted out. A truly benevolent being would do no more than to offer or suggest a certain course of action, and allow the person they are helping to make the decision on their own, without pressure or force.
At one point, Wilson describes memories of having some sort of medical procedure being performed on herself and a number of others. In questioning where these memories might come from, she says: “Did these men really put me into a SUV and take me somewhere else to perhaps film this or record this ‘Liquid Memory’ hypnosis session? I doubt it. Why go to all the trouble?” This brings up a point that needs to be explained. The insertion of full blown, completely realistic screen memories doesn’t require staging scenes and acting out parts for the sake of fooling an abductee, which is what she seems to be implying. Through hypnosis, the person can be directed to create these scenes in their minds through suggestive input, which can be done relatively quickly and without having to relocate the person during the procedure. The suggestive input might be designed simply to add information that will mislead the person as to what’s really going on, or it might be more significant than just that. Whatever the case, the hypnotist merely guides the person in creating the scenes in their heads, and the full-blown detail and realism are due to the level of hypnotic trance and heightened suggestibility of the person. It would be much like having a controlled lucid dream. Your mind can simulate any sort of experience that might be described. If it’s given enough freedom to do so, it can be quite imaginative in filling in details, or it can be given quite intricate details that are very specific. It all depends on the suggestive input being given.
Further in her book, Wilson describes a long repressed memory of an event that occurred eight years before she realized she was an abductee. It was a hospital-like setting with ordinary humans, and they were performing brain-mapping procedures. A man was being prepared, and had his hair shaved short and grid lines were being marked off on his scalp. Since this scene apparently occurred early in Wilson’s experiences, it would make sense that she was having her brain mapped for later mind-control using electromagnetic technologies.iii
Wilson states: “I think the reason I rarely remember traveling to their craft is because the process of transporting aboard is so disconcerting to me, that I have either asked them to block it from my memory or they block me from remembering because I become so upset.” So we see that there is very little evidence that she really has to be able to conclude that she’s actually being taken anywhere. This same lack of memory of being transported to alien craft is found in many other abduction cases.
Wilson often describes having scenes projected into her mind telepathically. I question how she differentiates these from other remembered scenes, other than that they take place during those remembered scenes. Could it not be that the remembered scenes are themselves simulated by whatever means (such as hypnosis), and these projected telepathic scenes are just a part of that?
Something that Wilson misses from most of her descriptions of her remembered experiences, and which I feel is very important if we are ever to understand what might really be going on, is background information on each incident of having a memory, such as the state of mind that she was in and what she was doing at the time that the memory surfaced. This information is missing from many other abduction cases as well, in spite of it being very important for determining the reality of what is going on, since there might be something significant to them that could reveal what is causing these sudden memories and what lies behind their occurrences.
It seems that as Wilson’s experiences progress, the aliens become more and more indistinguishable from humans, and it’s only her sense of being able to identify them as alien that leads her to think they are. This could be because she had been hypnotically instructed to see certain people who worked with her as aliens, and over time the false imagery of them faded while the idea that they were alien remained intact.
The length of many of Wilson’s remembered experiences seem to be far too long and detailed for memory flashbacks, let alone normal memories. However, they are not at all too long for scripted scenes that could have been fed to her with a few descriptive cues to lead her in creating them in her mind.
Near the end of her book, Wilson discusses certain experiences she had that seemed like remote viewing, and suggests that it might have been some sort of virtual reality technology. She states: “Some of the military-type remote viewings could actually be a form of training for abductee-experiencers via virtual reality scenarios using alien technology.” She obviously isn’t aware of the fact that such technologies are completely within our own human capabilities. There is no need for aliens or their technology for anything that she has experienced. That this sort of technology might exist, and could be the reason why so many people are claiming to have virtual reality type dreams of being on military training missions (myself included, at least once), may be real enough, but for other reasons. Such virtual reality dreams may have military scenarios only because these scenarios fit with the entire deception, and add to further misdirect attempts to understand what is really going on. However, I do feel that there is some significance to these scenarios being some sort of mental training or to test a person’s responses to given situations.
Wilson even admits that she finds her MILAB experiences to be difficult to distinguish from the virtual reality experiences she’s had, and this adds further weight to the possibility that she was never really abducted by aliens, and perhaps not even by humans. All of these experiences could have been induced remotely by mind-control technologies. She even makes the connection between these types of experiences and the experience she had with a member of the military being in her bedroom and holding an electronic device that he claimed could do this.
At the end of her book, Wilson includes several remembered accounts from another woman she knows named Doreen. In one of these accounts, Doreen is describing an object she sees, and states: “I looked at it and as soon as I tried to make a face out of it a face would start to take shape. Whatever form I would think of it would start to take on that shape.” This sounds like a dream or the effects of hypnosis, where the imagination is in full operation. I offer this as further evidence that these experiences are creations of the mind rather than objective experiences.
It is my opinion that Kay Wilson’s abduction experiences were entirely human in nature, and that she was selected and used in an MKULTRA-style mind-control program. I believe that Wilson has also been used as an unwitting agent in promoting a false reality that is being used extensively (and very effectively) to cover up the experimentation or application of mind-control technologies.
It has been my personal experience in attempting to talk to other alien abductee claimants that the mention of any other alternative explanations for their experiences are quickly refused with no reason given and before ever being considered fairly, which suggests that this is a routine part of the programming. I have noticed the very same refusal to consider alternative explanations among claimed targets of directed-energy weapons and mind-control, which leads me to believe that they are also being purposely being deceived as to the true nature of their experiences.
The fact that Wilson has received extensive promotional help by key people in ufology circles (many who happen to be connected to military or intelligence agencies) is very significant, and only leads to further doubt about her interpretation of her claims.
i This is virtually identical to what occurred with Betty Andreasson Luca.
ii Interestingly, many infamous assassins and mass murderers were found to have kept journals. Eric Harris, one of the Columbine killers, had kept an online journal that would have kept his handlers apprised of his activities as they related to the final event.
iii Brain mapping indicates that EEG responses are being recorded as they correlate with given stimuli, so that the responses can then be ‘played back’ at the person in order to reestablish the same brain state.